Red Mosquito

daft twat wrote: Mon May 04, 2026 2:57 am In mid-March I decided I needed to have a drink. It wasn’t a craving. Because my first day without a drink was February 1st, I knew exactly how many days it had been every single day, and it was weighing on me in a weird way. Kind of like a Wordle streak. If it gets too long, I find myself not enjoying the game anymore because I’m so obsessed with the streak.

Anyway, I had a couple drinks before bed. It was enjoyable. A little over a week later, it was my birthday. I didn’t go anywhere or anything, but I used it as an excuse to drink a couple before bed. Again, it was nice. Less than a week later, I was on spring break and decided to start it by watching my hockey team with a couple drinks. Unfortunately, that became 5 nights in a row. On the last of those 5 days, I even drank during the day because I was bored.

I woke up the next day feeling disgusted with myself. I wasn’t hung over or anything, but I had let myself turn one night into five so easily. Just right back into the routine. Fell into a pretty deep depression for a couple weeks. By coincidence, that was April 1st.

So it’s May 3rd, and I once again know exactly how many days it’s been. April was so much easier than February. No headaches. The first week was tough with cravings, but it’s been easy since. Summer vacation is just 4 weeks away. I don’t want to teetotal all summer, but I don’t want to fall back into the nightly routine. I have no idea how it will play out. My simple goal is to drink less days than I do this year. I drank every day in January. I drank 7 days in March. I wouldn’t say I’m winning, but I’m ahead.

tree_ wrote: Tue May 05, 2026 12:19 am Way too wett right now. But then again,, everything is relative right?? Lol! Ohh fuckk

daft twat wrote: Mon May 04, 2026 2:57 am In mid-March I decided I needed to have a drink. It wasn’t a craving. Because my first day without a drink was February 1st, I knew exactly how many days it had been every single day, and it was weighing on me in a weird way. Kind of like a Wordle streak. If it gets too long, I find myself not enjoying the game anymore because I’m so obsessed with the streak.

Anyway, I had a couple drinks before bed. It was enjoyable. A little over a week later, it was my birthday. I didn’t go anywhere or anything, but I used it as an excuse to drink a couple before bed. Again, it was nice. Less than a week later, I was on spring break and decided to start it by watching my hockey team with a couple drinks. Unfortunately, that became 5 nights in a row. On the last of those 5 days, I even drank during the day because I was bored.

I woke up the next day feeling disgusted with myself. I wasn’t hung over or anything, but I had let myself turn one night into five so easily. Just right back into the routine. Fell into a pretty deep depression for a couple weeks. By coincidence, that was April 1st.

So it’s May 3rd, and I once again know exactly how many days it’s been. April was so much easier than February. No headaches. The first week was tough with cravings, but it’s been easy since. Summer vacation is just 4 weeks away. I don’t want to teetotal all summer, but I don’t want to fall back into the nightly routine. I have no idea how it will play out. My simple goal is to drink less days than I do this year. I drank every day in January. I drank 7 days in March. I wouldn’t say I’m winning, but I’m ahead.

wease wrote: Mon May 04, 2026 11:19 am Hang in there man. The best way to stay out of the routine is to simply not do it again. I’m very much the same way. “Just this once” turns into once a week, then a few nights a week, then we’re back where we started. I know full well it’s easier said than done but I’ve found it best to just stay away from those things I feel are negatively contributing because I know I’m not a one-and-done guy.