Red Mosquito

spike wrote:

spike wrote:I like fixing stuff and I’m decent at it. What I miscalculated was how fucking hot it was today and how old my back and knees are getting.

I definitely should’ve been in the water instead, but it all kinda snowballed.

Wife has come down with a bad cold, so my still broken body had to jump in and do some weeding this morning. Back is stiff AF now, and I tweaked a muscle in my left side. Just falling apart.

Both girls napping now at least, so I’m going to take the boat for a spin.

96583UP wrote:

spike wrote:

spike wrote:I like fixing stuff and I’m decent at it. What I miscalculated was how fucking hot it was today and how old my back and knees are getting.

I definitely should’ve been in the water instead, but it all kinda snowballed.

Wife has come down with a bad cold, so my still broken body had to jump in and do some weeding this morning. Back is stiff AF now, and I tweaked a muscle in my left side. Just falling apart.

Both girls napping now at least, so I’m going to take the boat for a spin.

you deserve some me time

go get it, king

spike wrote:

96583UP wrote:

spike wrote:

spike wrote:I like fixing stuff and I’m decent at it. What I miscalculated was how fucking hot it was today and how old my back and knees are getting.

I definitely should’ve been in the water instead, but it all kinda snowballed.

Wife has come down with a bad cold, so my still broken body had to jump in and do some weeding this morning. Back is stiff AF now, and I tweaked a muscle in my left side. Just falling apart.

Both girls napping now at least, so I’m going to take the boat for a spin.

you deserve some me time

go get it, king

That was nice. Ozone day, so enough haze in the sky to make the sun the perfect warmth without being overcast. Listened to tunes, crushed a couple beers, kept the my speed under 6mph most of the time. Straight chillin.

doug rr wrote:

spike wrote:

96583UP wrote:

spike wrote:

spike wrote:I like fixing stuff and I’m decent at it. What I miscalculated was how fucking hot it was today and how old my back and knees are getting.

I definitely should’ve been in the water instead, but it all kinda snowballed.

Wife has come down with a bad cold, so my still broken body had to jump in and do some weeding this morning. Back is stiff AF now, and I tweaked a muscle in my left side. Just falling apart.

Both girls napping now at least, so I’m going to take the boat for a spin.

you deserve some me time

go get it, king

That was nice. Ozone day, so enough haze in the sky to make the sun the perfect warmth without being overcast. Listened to tunes, crushed a couple beers, kept the my speed under 6mph most of the time. Straight chillin.

sounds lovely...we had friends over last night..had a good dinner, woke up and made everyone eggs Benedict with my wife's homemade sourdough bread..had a couple mimosas on the patio this morning with them..they left at noon...I'm half dead on the couch watching golf...bed by 830

Jorge wrote:

BurtReynolds wrote:Holy shit I cannot believe you got to meet her.

We took a photo together. I couldn't believe my luck

Carl Sandburg wrote:There is a wolf in me . . . fangs pointed for tearing gashes . . . a red tongue for raw meat . . . and the hot lapping of blood—I keep this wolf because the wilderness gave it to me and the wilderness will not let it go.

There is a fox in me . . . a silver-gray fox . . . I sniff and guess . . . I pick things out of the wind and air . . . I nose in the dark night and take sleepers and eat them and hide the feathers . . . I circle and loop and double-cross.

There is a hog in me . . . a snout and a belly . . . a machinery for eating and grunting . . . a machinery for sleeping satisfied in the sun—I got this too from the wilderness and the wilderness will not let it go.

There is a fish in me . . . I know I came from salt-blue water-gates . . . I scurried with shoals of herring . . . I blew waterspouts with porpoises . . . before land was . . . before the water went down . . . before Noah . . . before the first chapter of Genesis.

There is a baboon in me . . . clambering-clawed . . . dog-faced . . . yawping a galoot's hunger . . . hairy under the armpits . . . here are the hawk-eyed hankering men . . . here are the blonde and blue-eyed women . . . here they hide curled asleep waiting . . . ready to snarl and kill . . . ready to sing and give milk . . . waiting—I keep the baboon because the wilderness says so.

There is an eagle in me and a mockingbird . . . and the eagle flies among the Rocky Mountains of my dreams and fights among the Sierra crags of what I want . . . and the mockingbird warbles in the early forenoon before the dew is gone, warbles in the underbrush of my Chattanoogas of hope, gushes over the blue Ozark foothills of my wishes—And I got the eagle and the mockingbird from the wilderness.

O, I got a zoo, I got a menagerie, inside my ribs, under my bony head, under my red-valve heart—and I got something else: it is a man-child heart, a woman-child heart: it is a father and mother and lover: it came from God-Knows-Where: it is going to God-Knows-Where—For I am the keeper of the zoo: I say yes and no: I sing and kill and work: I am a pal of the world: I came from the wilderness.

Malloy wrote:my anxiety is so profoundly out of control. med time again.

what do you do when you can't control your thoughts, when you're heart rate is high, and you're out of breath, too scared and worked up to sleep. already been to the er on friday.

Malloy wrote:my anxiety is so profoundly out of control. med time again.

what do you do when you can't control your thoughts, when you're heart rate is high, and you're out of breath, too scared and worked up to sleep. already been to the er on friday.

Malloy wrote:my anxiety is so profoundly out of control. med time again.

what do you do when you can't control your thoughts, when you're heart rate is high, and you're out of breath, too scared and worked up to sleep. already been to the er on friday.

tree_ wrote:For anyone suffering from anxiety/depression, I again highly recommend Wim Hof breathing. Has worked wonders for me and many others. Just try it

tragabigzanda wrote:

Malloy wrote:my anxiety is so profoundly out of control. med time again.

what do you do when you can't control your thoughts, when you're heart rate is high, and you're out of breath, too scared and worked up to sleep. already been to the er on friday.

When I got sober and couldn’t sleep, I did 30 minutes of a mudita meditation each day for 30 days straight. I am convinced this had one of the biggest, if not the biggest, impact on my sanity then:

Pick a person you’re close with, but not romantic/sexual. Picture them in your head. Breathe in/out for each line:

May you have joy and success
May you appreciate your joy and success
May your joy and success grow
May I participate in your joy

Do it five times for this person, then repeat the process for
-A neutral acquaintance, like a barista or bank teller you see regularly
-Someone you have personal conflict with
-A public figure you hate

That neuroplasticity shit works. You can retrain the way your brain’s synaptic pathways operate. This was like 30 minutes of mental/spiritual calisthenics each day, and at the end I was drastically less inclined to feel bad for myself or get lost in narratives where I was a victim

BurtReynolds wrote:

Malloy wrote:my anxiety is so profoundly out of control. med time again.

what do you do when you can't control your thoughts, when you're heart rate is high, and you're out of breath, too scared and worked up to sleep. already been to the er on friday.

Have you tried cutting back on carbs?

JuanHamm wrote:

tree_ wrote:For anyone suffering from anxiety/depression, I again highly recommend Wim Hof breathing. Has worked wonders for me and many others. Just try it

I recently started doing this every morning and it definitely helps.