I was thinking about how much meth my uncle has done (and continues to do) in his lifetime and yet he's still somehow alive. Is my bloodline effectively immortal?
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 2:07 pm
by tragabigzanda
Carl Sandburg wrote:There is a wolf in me . . . fangs pointed for tearing gashes . . . a red tongue for raw meat . . . and the hot lapping of blood—I keep this wolf because the wilderness gave it to me and the wilderness will not let it go.
There is a fox in me . . . a silver-gray fox . . . I sniff and guess . . . I pick things out of the wind and air . . . I nose in the dark night and take sleepers and eat them and hide the feathers . . . I circle and loop and double-cross.
There is a hog in me . . . a snout and a belly . . . a machinery for eating and grunting . . . a machinery for sleeping satisfied in the sun—I got this too from the wilderness and the wilderness will not let it go.
There is a fish in me . . . I know I came from salt-blue water-gates . . . I scurried with shoals of herring . . . I blew waterspouts with porpoises . . . before land was . . . before the water went down . . . before Noah . . . before the first chapter of Genesis.
There is a baboon in me . . . clambering-clawed . . . dog-faced . . . yawping a galoot's hunger . . . hairy under the armpits . . . here are the hawk-eyed hankering men . . . here are the blonde and blue-eyed women . . . here they hide curled asleep waiting . . . ready to snarl and kill . . . ready to sing and give milk . . . waiting—I keep the baboon because the wilderness says so.
There is an eagle in me and a mockingbird . . . and the eagle flies among the Rocky Mountains of my dreams and fights among the Sierra crags of what I want . . . and the mockingbird warbles in the early forenoon before the dew is gone, warbles in the underbrush of my Chattanoogas of hope, gushes over the blue Ozark foothills of my wishes—And I got the eagle and the mockingbird from the wilderness.
O, I got a zoo, I got a menagerie, inside my ribs, under my bony head, under my red-valve heart—and I got something else: it is a man-child heart, a woman-child heart: it is a father and mother and lover: it came from God-Knows-Where: it is going to God-Knows-Where—For I am the keeper of the zoo: I say yes and no: I sing and kill and work: I am a pal of the world: I came from the wilderness.
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 2:12 pm
by Coach
Major anxiety / panic attack. I haven't had one in a very long time. These suck.
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 2:12 pm
by tragabigzanda
Carl Sandburg wrote:There is a wolf in me . . . fangs pointed for tearing gashes . . . a red tongue for raw meat . . . and the hot lapping of blood—I keep this wolf because the wilderness gave it to me and the wilderness will not let it go.
There is a fox in me . . . a silver-gray fox . . . I sniff and guess . . . I pick things out of the wind and air . . . I nose in the dark night and take sleepers and eat them and hide the feathers . . . I circle and loop and double-cross.
There is a hog in me . . . a snout and a belly . . . a machinery for eating and grunting . . . a machinery for sleeping satisfied in the sun—I got this too from the wilderness and the wilderness will not let it go.
There is a fish in me . . . I know I came from salt-blue water-gates . . . I scurried with shoals of herring . . . I blew waterspouts with porpoises . . . before land was . . . before the water went down . . . before Noah . . . before the first chapter of Genesis.
There is a baboon in me . . . clambering-clawed . . . dog-faced . . . yawping a galoot's hunger . . . hairy under the armpits . . . here are the hawk-eyed hankering men . . . here are the blonde and blue-eyed women . . . here they hide curled asleep waiting . . . ready to snarl and kill . . . ready to sing and give milk . . . waiting—I keep the baboon because the wilderness says so.
There is an eagle in me and a mockingbird . . . and the eagle flies among the Rocky Mountains of my dreams and fights among the Sierra crags of what I want . . . and the mockingbird warbles in the early forenoon before the dew is gone, warbles in the underbrush of my Chattanoogas of hope, gushes over the blue Ozark foothills of my wishes—And I got the eagle and the mockingbird from the wilderness.
O, I got a zoo, I got a menagerie, inside my ribs, under my bony head, under my red-valve heart—and I got something else: it is a man-child heart, a woman-child heart: it is a father and mother and lover: it came from God-Knows-Where: it is going to God-Knows-Where—For I am the keeper of the zoo: I say yes and no: I sing and kill and work: I am a pal of the world: I came from the wilderness.
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 2:14 pm
by Coach
Two things kinda converged at once.
I pay a lot in child support every week and it's starting to really drain my savings. And, I see no way out. Trying to reduce my expenses.
Second, had my physical the other day and my cholesterol is over 300 and they are putting me on medicine (high cholesterol runs in the family).
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 2:15 pm
by Coach
But yeah this is the kind where I'm sick to my stomach and shaking. I know it will pass, but still.
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 2:16 pm
by BurtReynolds
tragabigzanda wrote:Is he getting that tranq stuff?
I dont know what that is, but I'm sure he's done it.
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 2:21 pm
by tree_
Dang, so sorry, Coach. I promise you if you try a breathing exercise like, for instance, wim hof, it can help.
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 2:22 pm
by Jorge
doug rr wrote:
Jorge wrote:
doug rr wrote:driving up to Vancouver this morning for a few days
Me too
lunch tomorrow?
No
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 2:33 pm
by Coach
tree_ wrote:Dang, so sorry, Coach. I promise you if you try a breathing exercise like, for instance, wim hof, it can help.
yup, I def will check this out
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 3:08 pm
by lennytheweedwhacker
I’m sorry, Coach. They are awful. How close are you to the child support ending?
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 3:17 pm
by Coach
lennytheweedwhacker wrote:I’m sorry, Coach. They are awful. How close are you to the child support ending?
My kiddo is eight, so I have a long way. I'm not in an emergency financial situation yet but the trend of borrowing from my savings account has got to end.
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 5:22 pm
by spike
Coach wrote:
lennytheweedwhacker wrote:I’m sorry, Coach. They are awful. How close are you to the child support ending?
My kiddo is eight, so I have a long way. I'm not in an emergency financial situation yet but the trend of borrowing from my savings account has got to end.
Side hustle as a faecal transplant donor?
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 5:41 pm
by Coach
spike wrote:
Coach wrote:
lennytheweedwhacker wrote:I’m sorry, Coach. They are awful. How close are you to the child support ending?
My kiddo is eight, so I have a long way. I'm not in an emergency financial situation yet but the trend of borrowing from my savings account has got to end.
Side hustle as a faecal transplant donor?
Everything is on the table!
But yeah, I think it's time for a second job like freelance work or a fun side hustle. Divorce is a joy.
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 5:44 pm
by spike
Coach wrote:
spike wrote:
Coach wrote:
lennytheweedwhacker wrote:I’m sorry, Coach. They are awful. How close are you to the child support ending?
My kiddo is eight, so I have a long way. I'm not in an emergency financial situation yet but the trend of borrowing from my savings account has got to end.
Side hustle as a faecal transplant donor?
Everything is on the table!
But yeah, I think it's time for a second job like freelance work or a fun side hustle. Divorce is a joy.
Might be too late, but you could take advantage of summer festival season and get some seasonal work nights/weekends. Bartending, food service, security, etc. Could be kinda cool.
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 5:45 pm
by bodysnatcher
spike wrote:
Coach wrote:
spike wrote:
Coach wrote:
lennytheweedwhacker wrote:I’m sorry, Coach. They are awful. How close are you to the child support ending?
My kiddo is eight, so I have a long way. I'm not in an emergency financial situation yet but the trend of borrowing from my savings account has got to end.
Side hustle as a faecal transplant donor?
Everything is on the table!
But yeah, I think it's time for a second job like freelance work or a fun side hustle. Divorce is a joy.
Might be too late, but you could take advantage of summer festival season and get some seasonal work nights/weekends. Bartending, food service, security.
i mean the logical thing is to look for a coaching job
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 5:58 pm
by Coach
bodysnatcher wrote:
spike wrote:
Coach wrote:
spike wrote:
Coach wrote:
lennytheweedwhacker wrote:I’m sorry, Coach. They are awful. How close are you to the child support ending?
My kiddo is eight, so I have a long way. I'm not in an emergency financial situation yet but the trend of borrowing from my savings account has got to end.
Side hustle as a faecal transplant donor?
Everything is on the table!
But yeah, I think it's time for a second job like freelance work or a fun side hustle. Divorce is a joy.
Might be too late, but you could take advantage of summer festival season and get some seasonal work nights/weekends. Bartending, food service, security.
i mean the logical thing is to look for a coaching job
These are all good suggestions. I worked as a lifeguard once, but would have to get recertified.
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 6:07 pm
by spike
Coach wrote:
bodysnatcher wrote:
spike wrote:
Coach wrote:
spike wrote:
Coach wrote:
lennytheweedwhacker wrote:I’m sorry, Coach. They are awful. How close are you to the child support ending?
My kiddo is eight, so I have a long way. I'm not in an emergency financial situation yet but the trend of borrowing from my savings account has got to end.
Side hustle as a faecal transplant donor?
Everything is on the table!
But yeah, I think it's time for a second job like freelance work or a fun side hustle. Divorce is a joy.
Might be too late, but you could take advantage of summer festival season and get some seasonal work nights/weekends. Bartending, food service, security.
i mean the logical thing is to look for a coaching job
These are all good suggestions. I worked as a lifeguard once, but would have to get recertified.
You could also do Uber or shop and deliver groceries for people. I know a few people who’ve done that for some extra scratch.
Re: Talk about your day thread
Posted: Tue June 13, 2023 6:10 pm
by Coach
spike wrote:
Coach wrote:
bodysnatcher wrote:
spike wrote:
Coach wrote:
spike wrote:
Coach wrote:
lennytheweedwhacker wrote:I’m sorry, Coach. They are awful. How close are you to the child support ending?
My kiddo is eight, so I have a long way. I'm not in an emergency financial situation yet but the trend of borrowing from my savings account has got to end.
Side hustle as a faecal transplant donor?
Everything is on the table!
But yeah, I think it's time for a second job like freelance work or a fun side hustle. Divorce is a joy.
Might be too late, but you could take advantage of summer festival season and get some seasonal work nights/weekends. Bartending, food service, security.
i mean the logical thing is to look for a coaching job
These are all good suggestions. I worked as a lifeguard once, but would have to get recertified.
You could also do Uber or shop and deliver groceries for people. I know a few people who’ve done that for some extra scratch.
Yep, all on my list.
I did some freelance writing back in the day that paid well too
